2B,

This is what you said you wanted. It's what Louise said you wanted. It's what Nyan said you wanted.
Now you don't want it? And here I thought I had heard it from the horses mouth, so to speak.

This isn't sudden; it's been a sentiment I've heard echoed since before last Christmas.
Yet until, well, this incident, I was working quite hard to see if this distance could be repaired.
So no, you were not alone in this sentiment; I thought I was.

As I said, I will always be available, if you initiate communication.
I have no problems with you beyond...what we've already discussed.
You quite clearly seem to have problems with me.
There are quite a few things you've said I could take offense to, and I'm quite sure you said them for that reason.

So perhaps you can see why I'd be perplexed; am I the frog and you the scorpion?
You may think me paranoid, or as you said that the well has been poisoned by the lines of Eva and Bernkastel, but that's not it.
Every actual conversation we've ever had, even back to when you were doxxed has had you acting like a total bitch who refuses to even acknowledge anything brought up to her. Kermit and I have counted no less than 30 times you've directly contradicted yourself.

As well, let me correct you: I did not drop this issue nor did I wish to. I was forced to.
Getting an apology from those involved is the bare minimum that should be done to resolve this situation.
There's no fucking way anyone can reasonably state that saying "I'm sorry" is too much of a burden.
That's something meaningful not done.

But both Reaver and I were willing to let this go last year, after Enth gave his details to Rory.
You may notice we did not demand any sort of apologies until Dag started spouting his damn family members names in chat.
That's what made Reaver lean on me to lean on you.
He no longer believes that it is possible to convince those who have wronged him to apologize. That all this is doing is harming me.
So he's taken me off the case.

I respect his wishes. But don't think for a second this is over.
It just won't involve me.
And will probably involve Initial D references.

Disillusioned is my word, Toobs. But no, I'm not disillusioned.
How could I be? You followed the game plan I predicted to a T.
If anything, I wish I had been wrong.
Still, I'm sure you've got some surprises left for before I go.

No problem on the spammers.
I anticipate you'll continue to be bombed.
Let me say upfront no, I am not spamming you (I'd be able to hit you every 3 seconds).
I've directed my attention in bots to providing an automated way to identify threads with people in need, and automated systems to help them.
If you see someone posting an OP that looks like mine but has pictures of Connor from Detroit Become Human, that's my beta.

Feel free to say hello.

Ah, gmail is the worst. I was still workshopping that email. 

Oh well. It's close enough. It's not as if putting hours into this is going to magically get my eloquence sufficiently high to convince you of anything.

Please read it in the tone of...someone miffed but calm. I think it should flow fine as long as you don't take it too much to heart.

Let's tl;dr it:

1. I thought not communicating with me was something you wanted. If it isn't, feel free. You set the rules.

2. I'm not wise, just listening to the person harmed. I was summoned to help and now dismissed.

3. You are predictable and power hungry but as long as you are helping people as well as satisfying your ego, I'm not disillusioned.

This isn't harsh, but blunt, you Nietzsche wannabe; read some Locke to balance yourself out, and help you not cross lines that shouldn't be crossed. 

Yeah, I took Philosophy 101 too. <4 (imagine this said semi jokingly, haha but 4reals tone it down)

4. You'll still get spammed and I won't deploy Misaka Worst for you but I'll still be working to get rid of the spammers and protect free speech on /b/.

So I may be helping you unintentionally, but I won't touch your threads.

5. I'm automating my deployment of force on /b/ to combat this threat and to assist in helping others.

Alright, that seems pretty good. 

Hopefully this comes across well and not as arrogant, condescending, elitist, grand standing, or...I don't know. Unempathetic.

As I said in my first email, and I truly do mean this, anyone who tries to help people on /b/ is someone I support.

Even if you doxxed me yourself, I'd do that. Because that's what it means to be Alice.

So take all of this with a bit of salt. 

But I'll leave it to you where to draw the lines. I reject you saying "Your call".

I'm the one who is an open book for anyone to read, and you a closed one with a lock.

Can't expect me to know where to draw the line if only you know what is going on in your head.

But as Louise said, the chances of you opening up to me are very close to zero.

So be explicit in what you want. I can't divine it from you when we haven't once had an actual conversation.

Even my empathy isn't that good.

With love,

Alice