Keep it together. You were wounded; it was bound to happen eventually.
But as you established before, what good is anticipation and estimation if it doesn't ready you for the trauma of impact?
Now look at you, you feel ashamed of yourself. Partially for being so careless and open.
Partially because you have resentment burning up in your heart. Why are you such a spiteful little bitch?
There's an impulse, to turn away, to perpetuate suffering either that of your own or theirs.
Knock it off; you looked stupid, you felt stupid. No one is spared from foolishness and you're certainly no exception.
Get over yourself and that ego. You insisted on playing this game, so you had better get used to the hardships.
Approach the situation with an iota of diplomacy. Don't antagonize. Don't guilt. Be constructive rather than destructive.
You're too good at turning people away; do not demonstrate your mastery with him.
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